Bothered

Two my closest friends have been ignoring me for a little over 2 weeks now in obvious ways. Both already finished finals a while ago. I'm not stupid, I get the message.

Why is it that when you need really your friends, they ditch you?


Were they ever really your friends?


Do they really care,

or was it all just talk?


They probably look down on me because I got pregnant. Ok. But they also know that even though I could have, I didnt go sleeping around all the time. I hadn't done anything to any extent with anyone since my last boyfriend years ago, which was also a very long term relationship. When I got pregnant I hadn't planned on doing anything with anyone. I was in Med school in a cut throat program, stressed, exhausted, and hadn't even been dating since August. You do the math. It just gets to me that in particular, a friend that said he would always be there for me, a best friend that I've had for 6 years, is gone. Suddenly, now, it's "Sorry Lulu, I can't talk." ...unless he needs something. Way to keep your word.